5-26-10

Today, I am 8 1/2 weeks pregnant! I am so very happy! I have waited for so long to be able to say this! The last 4 or 5 weeks has been a complete roller coaster! My poor husband and mother must truly love me! That is all I can say. And to them, I have to say Thank You!!!! Poor Jay, he has done NOTHING right. He absolutely drives me insane! As the old saying goes, "if we make it through this, we can make it through anything!" We say that a lot. We have said that from the moment we got married. The first year of our marriage we spent less than 3 months together. Married on Tuesday, left for Fort McCoy on Friday. The following week he was gone to Iraq. That was last May. We didn't see each other again until December 26. We had 15 days together and he was gone again until April 3. What a beautiful day. And then, we dove head first into our next 2 projects! Remodeling our house and Baby Morse! We have a long way to go on both projects! Who knows when the house will be finished, but Baby Morse should be ready by January 2.

I got to see my precious baby on Monday. It was the most amazing and beautiful thing I have ever seen in my whole life. Even though that sweet baby is still inside me, I have learned what the saying "mother's love" really means. There are no words that express how I feel about this baby already. I could see arms and legs. It's little head moved around. It had a very strong heartbeat. It's amazing! (If I haven't said that already!) Even though I have known for about 5 weeks that I'm pregnant, now that I have seen it, it feels totally real now!

Landon isn't quite sure what to think yet.... When I first told him there was a baby in my belly, he looked at me with a horrified look on his face and asked me if I ate it! I didn't even know what to say back to that. Jay and I just looked at each other and laughed. Every so often, he'll get close to my belly and in a very serious and loud voice says HELLO! Then doesn't understand why the baby doesn't answer him. He's come a long way though. He used to tell us if we had a baby he would throw it in the garbage. He doesn't say that now. Thankfully!! He's such a funny boy, and I know that he will be a wonderful big brother!